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Back from AZ

I had a wonderful time in Arizona with my Dad and stepmom D. We went out for dinner every night to great restaurants, they drove me around Phoenix, Scottsdale, Mesa, and Tempe, D and I even went to look at some apartments on Sunday (and I saw one I really liked!). I enjoyed the break, and feel like I have a solid Plan B.

Taffy is doing well. Lexie is making up for lost time in the snuggling department. I haven’t seen B since I got home.

Last October, my stepdad M and I had a falling out, and I hadn’t spoken to him, either of my sisters, my aunt and uncle, or grandma since then. My grandma called me a few weeks ago, and we’ve talked on the phone a few times. Out of the blue, my aunt emails me and says she knows I’m going thru a rough time and she’s around if I want to talk. I try calling her, get no answer, shoot her a quick email, and tell her I’ll call her after I get home from vacation. On my trip, I get a frantic call from grandma, asking if I’m sick, and WTF is going on?! I tell her to calm down and explain. She says that M called her and said B sent him something ‘on the internet’ (an email), that I was in need of family and would they step up and end the petty bullshit. I said I was fine, I’m not sick or dying or anything, and called B to ask him what he thought he was doing. He said he did it for me, since he knew I was having a rough time (duh), and I could use my family. Nice gesture, but no one except my aunt stepped forward, so I still feel that I can’t trust them even if they DO come around now. My aunt said M is worried about me, but hasn’t contacted me because my last email said to not call or email me. I only did that because the emails between M and B got so ugly, I wanted it all over. I didn’t want to get hurt any more by my own family, so I walked away. Well, we (M and I) may be talking soon. It will be interesting to see what comes of it.

Finals are this week. We had a standardized final in Chemistry, and I totally bombed it. There was so much stuff on there we did NOT learn in class it was ridiculous. I have another final in Chemistry on Thursday (we get the better of the two grades) I should do better on; I also have my Psych final on Thursday PLUS I go to Rockford for a job interview right afterwards! I’m thinking I should take myself out to dinner after all that.

Namaste

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Glad it’s over

Another Christmas is over. This year was very quiet for us (since most of my family–except for the most awesome Grandma ever–isn’t talking to me), and we were having a grand time. We rented movies, made yummy foods, and generally lazed about.

Then it happened.

One of my sisters decided to break the cone of silence.

She sent me some text messages, full of “Merry Christmas” and “I love you” and “I miss you”. WTF? Do you expect me to forget what you did to me? I admit it, I replied to her messages. I asked her to tell dad the truth. She said “he does know the truth. It’s not a game. Things got jumbled up”. No shit. Why would I think this was a game when it’s affecting my life the way it is? If she knows facts got “jumbled up”, why is no one trying to fix it? I hinted for her to call me, but she didn’t take the bait and hid behind more text messages. Funny how no one involved will actually pick up a phone and talk to me, they either text or email me (that should be past tense. This is the first I’ve heard from any of them in two months). Plus I think she was drunk, so it was probably better she didn’t call, although the texts pissed me off more than enough. Way to ruin my Christmas….and I wonder if that was her intention all along.

Namaste

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….A day late. B and I had a nice time at his aunt’s house yesterday. She makes SO much food it’s ridiculous. I brought my knitting with and I think everyone there asked me what I was making (sometimes I think I need to make up a t-shirt that says “Yes, I’m knitting ____.”) But they were genuinely interested, so I didn’t mind the interruptions.
Then the guys started a Eucher (sp?) game, and the ladies sat around talking and looking at the weekend sales flyers. The kids didn’t need to be yelled at too much, playing quietly in the playroom.
I brought some Cinnamon Sugar Pecans and brownies with, which everyone enjoyed. Last time we went (a few years ago now) I brought some kolacky cookies, and everyone acted like I brought a dog with three heads on a platter. No one wanted to be the first to try them, and we took most of them home. Lesson learned!
Today I am making turkey, stuffing, and green bean casserole for B and me. I might put up Christmas decorations today, might not. I might just knit.

Namaste

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A new sweater…

…and no pictures. Yet. I can’t believe I’ve been working on my Grandma’s sweater for over three weeks now and I haven’t even taken one progress photo!

B’s grandma isn’t feeling so hot right now. Sunday we got a call that she fell down her stairs and broke her neck. She went by ambulance to the local hospital, then they decided to move her, by helicopter, to another (bigger) hospital. She had surgery yesterday, and is stable. She didn’t sever her spinal cord, which was a huge blessing, they just had to go in and repair her broken vertebrae.

And to summarize the drama that is MY life, I said to my sisters that I didn’t like my dad’s girlfriend. They agreed. I told her I wasn’t going to my dad’s birthday party (no reason), she (girlfriend) turned around and said (to my dad) that I was mad at her and mean to her. How?? He got himself involved…my sisters told him I was all to blame, they never said anything like what I said about her…and now I’m a terrible, awful person who is “mentally unstable” (and apparently the “whole family” feels this way). For not liking my dad’s girlfriend! I decided if that’s the way they want to be, I don’t want any part of it. Oh, and my dad never asked ME what happened in this scenario, just took as gospel what everyone else had to say about me. Doesn’t that seem fair? 🙂 My husband, B, has taken it upon himself to try to make my dad see how pig-headed he’s being, to no avail. I keep telling B it’s not worth it, but he’s my loving husband and he’s trying.

So after all of that, I decided since most of “them” read my blog, I wouldn’t give them the satisfaction of being able to peek into my personal life whenever they wanted to, so I closed the old blog, which I’m sad about, because that’s a couple years of my life and knitting that I have to leave behind. This blog won’t have too many identifying markers of my life (town, names, etc) at least for a while. I feel indifference towards those that were my family, but I will protect myself and my husband from those who turned love into hate, and will not give them any “ammunition”. I am otherwise living a happy, busy life, and if they don’t want to be a part of it, that is up to them!

Namaste

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New Blog

So I’ve decided to start a new blog. The short story is that my family has decided to disown me over something stupid and pointless, and I don’t want them to be able to snoop in my personal life.

This is my fresh start!

Namaste

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